-248 Down, 117 to go

Well here I am.  Not been shopping for a single thing for myself since last OCTOBER!!  I can hardly believe it.  If you read my last couple of posts, you will know I was in WA State with my family for a not so happy reunion.  My Padre passed into heaven and I could not be sadder.  However, being in said State with my family, provided a few very unique shopping challenges...and I persevered!

My second week in town I took my dear Madre to buy some new clothes.  We went to Kohl's.  Now I have never shopped at Kohl's, they don't have what I normally would consider appropriate clothing for my age or work status.  In other words, I love, love, love all the cute trendy tops, dresses and pants they have for the junior set, but frankly, I am trying very hard to stay away from those trends.  I am learning the things I buy on impulse, trendy, not my normal 'style', are the things that are hanging in the back of my closet.  And since I have been shopping in my closet, none of those things have seen the light of day.  I feel kind of silly and a bit over the top and might put them on, but they always come off before I leave the house.

The other specialty Kohl's has is the suburban housewife look, and I can not bring myself to even try them on.  But my sweet M sat on the bench in the dressing room and tried on everything I brought her.  She has the stamina of a horse, and I say this with the best of intentions.  She tried on 14 pairs of pants and several tops.  I ran the floor looking for sizes and styles.  In the end, we went home with 3 new pairs of slacks, including a new pair of denim jeans (not Mom Jeans!), and 2 new tops.  I was so happy to be buying clothing!  Even though it wasn't for me, it hit the satisfaction bone.

Next post will be underpinning shopping with my sister-in-law.  Too much fun!

Love,
S

-135 = Day 235

I haven't posted but once this month.  My focus has not been on shopping or on what not to wear.  I have a marathon to run in 3 days, and I am sorely unprepared.  It is a good thing I have 7 hours to complete the race, otherwise I might just drop out. 

I am sitting in my Madre's dining room using her computer.  I rushed here a week and a half ago from Southern CA to be with my folks during my Padre's last few days on this earth.  He has been very ill for months, and it was only at the end that anyone would really acknowledge what I feared.  I am blessed to have had him all these years.  He has molded and shaped me in more ways than I can count.  His constant support and guidance will always be with me and have an impact for the rest of my days.

My father was a kind, gentle, and wise man.  He was a scholar and a teacher.  His influence over others was subtle but lasting.  He was the kind of man that could command a room.  He was respected in his work and all that met him, whether through his work, or in his personal life, were impacted by his wisdom.  He was humble, he was gracious, he was fair, and above all he was kind.  He accepted people and their foibles and helped them overcome their weaknesses, playing to their strengths.  He was my Daddy.  I miss him.

Love,

S

Countdown - 221

When I started this blog, I thought it would be all about me, and my angst over not shopping.  And it IS, it's just that right now I have other things on my mind. 

My Padre is in hospital.  He has been very ill for quite sometime and I am beside myself with worry.  I spoke with him a week ago and he was in such distress, I was ready to jump on a plane and rush to my Home State.  It is disconcerting to say the least, to hear your big strong Papa say he needs help.  It causes one to pause, and think about the bigger picture.  At least that is what it has done for me.

Under normal circumstances, this situation would have driven me straight to one of my fav boutiques to do a little stress shopping.  In times of unhappiness, stress, and worry, the immediate gratification of buying myself a little something 'new', has been a great source of temporary relief.  After almost 7 1/2 months of no shopping, I am realizing the shopping part is very temporary.  It has been during these types of stress shopping spree's I have made some of my worst purchasing decisions.  I am learning to deal with this in a new way.

I am praying more.
I am running more.
I am cleaning my house frequently.
I am working harder.

I am hoping some of these lessons will be permanent.  Mi Padre can't stay in this state forever without some sort of resolution.  As long as I don't 'eat' my way out of the stress, I think I will be ok.

Love,
S

-154 Day 211 What will I buy?

I mentioned to R that it had been 210 days since I had made a purchase for myself.  That prompted him to ask what I would buy if I were to buy something today.  Underwear, definitely underwear.  My underwear has seen much better days.

Sweet R.  He said underwear is a 'must have' item and I should be allowed.  I pulled open my drawer and showed him I DO have underwear, it is just not in the best of shape and NO, I am not caving, even with his blessing.


Love,
S

-156 and counting

I can't believe I have actually gone 209 days without making a single purchase for myself, excluding the couple items on my list of things I CAN buy.  I have bought new running shoes and I did just purchase a new tub of my foundation.  Which is the leading topic of this days post.

I have been using Bare Escentuals Mineral Make Up for 5 years.  I have found it to be the very best makeup for my aging skin, it covers a multitude of flaws, age and sun spots specifically, it is pure and clean, and it lasts a really long time!  The other morning while getting ready for work, I scraped the last bits of powder from the tub and realized I absolutely HAD to make a trip to the store.  I wanted to avoid the Sephora store at all costs and went instead to Planet Beauty.  PB is a local beauty store that carries BE and also shampoo, hair accessories, other brands of make-up and hair tools.  They have a small salon and also have an estetician for facials, brow waxing, etc.  It is a great store. 

I wandered in and decided to not look around or browse, just get what I went for and leave.  I asked for my one tub of of minerals and went to the counter to pay.  The savvy salesperson decided to show me the newest incarnation of brushes from BE.  It is the coolest little thing...I didn't buy it.  In fact, I ended up telling the sales girl and another customer all about my decision to go "Cold Turkey".  I wanted her to know how much I love, love, love the new brush, but I just couldn't purchase it because it is something new.  I was there for a refill only.  Now that was a true cold turkey moment. Behold, the new refillable BE buffing brush.

Love,
S

-159 Instant Gratification

This weekend I was in a Nordstrom store with my eldest son P and my darling granddaughter B.  Everywhere we turned, salespeople were oohing and aahing over the adorable B.  She is at the infant stage where she smiles in the mirror at herself and laughs.  I love it!  We headed in and out of stores with nary a glance at product for me.  It was all men's and baby departments with an occasional glance at the cosmentic and jewelry counters as we passed.  Until we hit Nordstrom...

What I am still loving is the specatacular vision of the Verona shoe by Cole Haan.  I have a picture from an early spring post of these great shoes.  This particular Nordy's had inexplicably sent their stock to MY Nordy's at South Coast Plaza, where they are resting beautifully, I am sure.  I explained to P that I wanted to go into the shoe department and see them in person.  If they had them, I would try them on but that under no circumstances would I be allowed to box and take them. 

These particular shoes are not leaving my consciousness any time soon, I am afraid. 

Sigh...

Love,
S

-166 Day 199

The J.Crew Catalog!

Need I say more?

Love,

S

-190 Happy Mothers Day!

I broke one of my rules today.  I accepted a gift.  R brought home flowers today and I absolutely love them. 

Happy Mother's Day to me and to all my Mother Friends!

Love,

S

-179 Frustrated?

Ok, so after making a big deal about doing so well mentally and feeling pretty good about my CT decisions yesetrday, today I am ready to hit the stores.  I couldn't find a thing in my closet that made me feel good.  I hate it when I put almost everything I own on, and nothing feels right.  Why are some days like this?  It doesn't occur that often but when it does, out comes the credit card and I head for whichever store is the closest.  But that was before Cold Turkey Shopping.

Today, I hate my closet. 

I have extended my hair appointments to the maximum allowable weeks between color treatments, according to the American Society for Better Looking Women in Their 50's.  I can't hold out any longer and I am off to see my miracle worker, Julie. 

Maybe a hair treatment will be just the ticket to help me forget my awful closet.

Love,
S

-180 - Counting down is hard to do...

I have been just horrible at writing lately. I don't know if it is the spring air and the sunshine keeping me outdoors but I have not had an inspiration lately. And I haven't had anything to say. Maybe I am really in the groove on my Cold Turkey and beginning to feel less involved in my retail habit.

I really believed that until I went through the JCrew catalog today. What is it about shoes that really gets to me? I am feeling sorely lacking in fresh summer footwear and it is really bothering me. I have been evaluating the difference between 'wanting' and 'needing'. Of course I need nothing!

But a girl can always want...

Love,

S